Reading "The Awakening" by Kate Chopin

I am finishing Kate Chopin's the Awakening and selected short fiction.. At the end of "The Awakening" all I could say was I don't blame for doing what she did.. I would not be able to survive living in that time period, the days of limited freedom for women, those days’ people live their lives according the script society created, and it saddens my that people still live that way now (more power to them).Not being able to be my authentic self would feel like drowning without dying, or being stuck in an elevator with one other person.

The idea of going to work around the same time everyday and doing the same thing at work everyday is difficult for me to handle, so i cannot fathom living my life on 24/7 schedule, especially a schedule dictated by social norms, one that does not leave room for me, one that assumes that I want my life to revolve around other's expectation, especially those expectation that differs from mine.

I find it funny and annoying when people live messages on my phone telling me they called and stating the reason i missed their call, most time I go days before return those calls because frankly the people that do that do not care to know me and they should not be call me.If i have to do something with someone or for someone, i like to make solid plans because most people are not reliable or spontaneous and too many variables are to be considered when others are involved.

My favorite days are the ones in which i have nothing planned, they are my full of possibilities days,during those days i wake up feeling like I could do anything or nothing all day, those are the days that makes life exciting and worth living.. Those are the days that remind me that I have the freedom to be me.

Generalizing

Generalizing…
Every time I hear people make generalized statements, I want to gouge my eyes out.. Seriously, in 2010 and people still don’t get that human comes in all shape, sizes and form, and each of these can be found in all corners of the earth, in all tribes, in all cultures, in all areas and in all countries. Some people haven't learned that they are not going to have everything in common with their friends and relatives and they will have something in common with their enemies, whether they like it or not.
So take a chill pill..

Numerology

Astrology speaking the planets were not on my side the time i was born, but numerology speaking i hit the goldmine. i love this.

Seven:Seven is a magical number full of esoteric potential. It is the offspring of 1,2,3,4,5,6. That's a lot of energy rolling around in one number, and seven does not disappoint in its definition. If number seven were a person, it would be quite evolved as it has seen the world and observed the infinite flavors of life. After experiencing these flavors, number seven withdraws into inner sanctum and begins to make sense of everything. This is why number meanings of number seven deals with magic, esotericism, academia, and other scholarly pursuits. When seven enters your awareness it is time to go within and contemplate meaning from your experiences. Make a study of your life. Do more research in the form of education or just observing life events and how they affect/connect with everything in your world.
http://www.astrologyknight.co.uk/new/articles-detail?item=238

life after death

When somewhere you are very close to die, live does not go on it changes and takes on another form. This is true for the living and the dead.

Moriyina

me and my cities

6/11/2010

Just like London, New York, Boston, and Montreal, being in Paris made me come alive, I felt like a moth when it sees a flame when I saw the great architectures and sensed the energy of the city. I felt as if I was the reincarnated being of someone who lived in the same eras as the geniuses who created these amazing works of art in Paris, a being who missed the finished products and now has the opportunity through me to check them out.

When I am these great cities, I feel like my potential as a human being is limitless, the only thing i worry about when i am matching about is what and where to eat when hunger strikes. I cannot imagine myself going to these places and spending all my days indoors.

Anytime that I am in a city I tell myself I should visit a museum or see a play but if the sun is shining I feel like I must be outdoors or else I will be missing something.

As I kid I loved hearing stories about the how’s, the when’s and why’s of the past, from anyone who was willing to share, which in most cases was my grandma, Nana the great. So when I am in places where you can actually see history I feel blissful. One regret I have is not being able to speak with the people who create this magnificent works of art, to ask them what their inspirations were and bow down. Oh, I also regret is not being able to see such beauty every day.
p.s
One day soon I will make it into a museum in New York City, I am currently reading about Art History.

my london paris trip

6/11/2010 Vacation My vacation to London and Paris in May went well. In London I loved meeting two new nieces and a new nephew (who I am certain will love me forever,) I loved seeing some old favorite sites and peeps and discovering new ones. When I am in London all I need is a map of the city and a travel card to make me happy. It was great walking around enjoying beauty and taking in the energy of the people and feeling as if I had no cares in the world. The most memorable think I did was to light a candle at a church the late Natasha Richardson (who will remain an iconic human in my eye forever) listed as one of her favorite sites in London, it felt surreal being there, knowing she was there previously doing exactly the same thing I was and the joy I felt was a bonus for me because I did it on my birthday. Unlike London, it was my first time in Paris and I stayed in a lovely hotel (les trios Poussins) and not with relatives. It was great seeing some of the places I had admired in pictures and read about, up close. It was great walking on the streets of Paris such as the Champ Elysees. I felt ecstatic climbing the Eiffel tour with the other tourists and being among the Parisians and fellow visitors. I cannot wait to go back and explore Paris some more along with the rest of France. As with London, when I am in Paris all I need a map of the city but instead of a travel card a carnet to make me happy. Most of all it was great to speak French in Paris after a year of daily French drills.


Paris


Saint Georges

La Seine

a square in Paris

Musee du louvre

A view from la Tour Eiffel



London

Picadilly Circus

The London Eye

West Minister Abbey

Traflagar Square

my candle shines here



My yummy chocolat bliss Birthday Cake

confidence is everything

6/13/2010
I woke up this morning thinking that if we support each other will be able to improve our world tremendously. We are all born with gifts that if is cared for they will help not only us but also those around us. When people feel cared for and supported they feel confident in themselves and that confident will show in whatever they do. Yesterday I was reading comments made about Alanis’ performance on the late night with Jay leno and one that struck me was one that said they forget how amazing her musical range was.

When I was watching the performance I was saying to myself that she sounded better than the recording and she looked fantastic, and that she must go into the studio now and start recording her album. Then I remember just before she got married we saw her looking very happier than usual which made me suspect something was up, and pictures of her after shows her beaming.

This morning a light bulb when off in my head when I woke up, i started I thinking about how great confidence can lead to great performance. Take Alanis’ for example, I think that her performance was great because she was confident in her abilities and when someone is confident they give it their all. In Alanis' case I think this performance we all loved stems from the fact that she was feeling very confident, this boast of confident came from the happiness and joy she is feeling now because of all the love and support she is currently receive by those who love her.

So in other words if you want to be amazed by what other people can do support them and if you want to amaze others by what you can do, seek create a community that will support you...

she finally found the one that gets her soul.. smile for Alanis Morissette.

It gemini season and it seems to be an exciting one for my most favorite one of us.. Alanis Morissette. Congratulations to her, she has finally found the guy that gets her core, respect her and love her to pieces..

I am so happy for her.. love seeing her pearly whites..

Congratulations sweetest one...