OMG, it is starting, everywhere I look, I see signs asking me to please give to this and that cause, every moment soliciting emails, I go home to what I hope will be solitude only to find mails waiting for me from organizations who have gotten my emails from others I have donated to. Not only that, my Per Diem job ( one that I have been hoping to fade out) expects me to cover all their available shift especially around holiday as if I do not deserve time holiday break just as their regular staff. Even when I told them I was over-worked and that I could only do 15 hours next month, they responded thanking me and then added if I would consider working at another house 25 min away ( yeah for the same lousy 9 dollars an hour before tax, gas not included),; dudette I already told you I dont want to drive that far..
In the breakroom at my full time job their are 3 or 4 posters asking for people to support some cause, in the lobby they have three different places to donate coats, food, toys. And soon I will be getting an email from my company asking me if I would love to continue my contribution to their charity program. Also since I am a Red Cross volunteer, I have to be available in case the weather becomes disatrous.
Giving and donating feels worthless this time to me, not that I do it for the feeling of self worth, shopping for gifts feels pointless because I am question whether the gifts are really appreciated because we all know damn well it is not the thought that counts, it the type of gift. I have seen people scuff at Christmas Santa gifts, I have heard that people do demand different gift than the one the received.
I don't even what to imgine what's going on in the malls right now..
Everyone seem to want something and all I want is peace.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
On my mind
It is very frustrating to be professional in an unprofessional environment
Trying not to judge others by the standards I set for myself is a feat in itself at times
Training the clueless is something I would not attempt
For my sanity, I will choose to ignore solicitation from inappropriate men
It is difficult to stay indoors working when the sun is illuminating the world outside
After a year and two months I am still flabbergasted by my favorite singer/person comment to me when we met
Finding time to read, study French, blog and relax is difficult when working 60 plus hours a week
I believe the world will change in 2012 but not in the Armageddon way people fear
I don’t like the holiday season because people get greedy and phony
I am not a traditionalist, I crave change and worship creativity
For someone like me who love hearing different views, I choose Twitter over facebook.. I don't really care to see pictures of babies and drunk events
Trying not to judge others by the standards I set for myself is a feat in itself at times
Training the clueless is something I would not attempt
For my sanity, I will choose to ignore solicitation from inappropriate men
It is difficult to stay indoors working when the sun is illuminating the world outside
After a year and two months I am still flabbergasted by my favorite singer/person comment to me when we met
Finding time to read, study French, blog and relax is difficult when working 60 plus hours a week
I believe the world will change in 2012 but not in the Armageddon way people fear
I don’t like the holiday season because people get greedy and phony
I am not a traditionalist, I crave change and worship creativity
For someone like me who love hearing different views, I choose Twitter over facebook.. I don't really care to see pictures of babies and drunk events
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Happy 1ST Anniversary to A view into Yina's Mind
Wow, i just realize that it is the anniversary of my blog.. What a year its been. Professional I am still in the same boat and personally I have improved in many areas. I read more now, I can speak and understand a bit more french and I seen some of the places on my list to visit.
By my next anniversary I hope to have improved in my professionally life as well as my personally.
I hope to blog more often.
By my next anniversary I hope to have improved in my professionally life as well as my personally.
I hope to blog more often.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Projecting your feelings unto others
It's funny how people make excuses for actions done by people they love and will criticize those they don't like for the same act. For example I was checking out a website that would remain nameless and someone mentioned that they are shock the individual the website is dedication to smoked, and quickly others came to the smoker's defense and started making excuses like ' the cigaratte the person smoked does not smell.. Whatever, the funny part is the smoker on many occasion had tried quitting and finally did, and that should have given some clue in the commenters head. These people would make great support system for people trying to quit an addiction-not.
Another conversation I found interesting was regarding an article written by someone who described how they thought the person had plastic surgery even thought the person did admit to at least doing one thing. People went on to attack of the writer of the article because how dear he/she mention it.. No one mentioned how the writer said that they thought the person was beautiful and did not need any work done.
People get over it, stop making it about you, its okay if you don't approve of plastic surgery for cosmectic purposes, but please mind your business. Attacking the writer and the magazine just says something about you for checking out the magazine in the first place and butting into other people's business.
Another conversation I found interesting was regarding an article written by someone who described how they thought the person had plastic surgery even thought the person did admit to at least doing one thing. People went on to attack of the writer of the article because how dear he/she mention it.. No one mentioned how the writer said that they thought the person was beautiful and did not need any work done.
People get over it, stop making it about you, its okay if you don't approve of plastic surgery for cosmectic purposes, but please mind your business. Attacking the writer and the magazine just says something about you for checking out the magazine in the first place and butting into other people's business.
"The year of the Magical Thinking"
You've done it or you will do it, it will happen to you, I love that line from the play it so true. Monday I went to see Vanessa Redgrave in a benefit performance of the ' The year of the Magical Thinking" for UNICEF.
Vanessa played Joan Didion in the play. The play was about the thoughts that ran through Joan's mind and the things she did or did not do they year her husband died and her daughter was ill.
The audience was mesmerized by the play and by the laughter coming from the audience I could tell most have done some magical thinking of their own and could relate to Joan, i such could.
When someone close to us die before finally accepting that they are gone, so many thoughts go through our head, we wonder like Joan Did if we could have prevented the death, if the person knew they were dying, if they were at a different location would they still be alive.. So many thoughts.. At the end of the play I was glad Joan made it and finally was able to write about it. She is a great writer. Hopefully Vanessa will get there as well.
Vanessa played Joan Didion in the play. The play was about the thoughts that ran through Joan's mind and the things she did or did not do they year her husband died and her daughter was ill.
The audience was mesmerized by the play and by the laughter coming from the audience I could tell most have done some magical thinking of their own and could relate to Joan, i such could.
When someone close to us die before finally accepting that they are gone, so many thoughts go through our head, we wonder like Joan Did if we could have prevented the death, if the person knew they were dying, if they were at a different location would they still be alive.. So many thoughts.. At the end of the play I was glad Joan made it and finally was able to write about it. She is a great writer. Hopefully Vanessa will get there as well.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Proud of and Happy for Alanis Morissette
Alanis ran the Biz Johnson Marathon today in order to help raise awareness for eating disorder and included as part of her team was her twin brother Wade.
I don't know how she did but am so proud that she trained and completed the race. For more information checkout her website at http://www.alanis.com/
I don't know how she did but am so proud that she trained and completed the race. For more information checkout her website at http://www.alanis.com/
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Trying to get away with stuff you know is wrong.
Why are some people always trying to get away with stuff they know is wrong. Everywhere i look these days there are people trying to get away with doing less for more, exagerating things to make it seem more urgent than it acutally is, and disregarding rules even if it means throwing someone else under the bus without batting an eye. I guess these are they people who live in the center of the sun because the probably see the world revolving around them.
These are the same people who you never see volunteer or raise their hands to help out anyone but are the first to stretch out their hands when they see someone else giving away free things and if the miss the day free stuff is being giving out, they will be the ones complaining.
The sad thing is this behavior will last as long as humans do because most of these people have kids, or have some sought of influence over someone else's children and eventually these behavior gets passed on.
These are the same people who you never see volunteer or raise their hands to help out anyone but are the first to stretch out their hands when they see someone else giving away free things and if the miss the day free stuff is being giving out, they will be the ones complaining.
The sad thing is this behavior will last as long as humans do because most of these people have kids, or have some sought of influence over someone else's children and eventually these behavior gets passed on.
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