Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Friday, November 22, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Transition (3) Gifts
Gifts
Yesterday I was doing one of my assessment of my life, wondering if what I do matter, as things around me keeps falling apart. This morning I checked my email and got this note from the administrator of one of my professional organization.
Yesterday I was doing one of my assessment of my life, wondering if what I do matter, as things around me keeps falling apart. This morning I checked my email and got this note from the administrator of one of my professional organization.
"I just want to take a moment to say thank you for your tremendous help at the Oct 24th Leadership Event…If it wasn’t for your calm presence and smile during what was a chaotic few hours, I would likely be “laid out on the floor” of the Club that Thursday evening!"
I am so eternally grateful to you! Looking forward to seeing you at an upcoming WHM event.
WOW-- I responded thanking her but I will definitely do it again in person, telling her what this means to my life and how it came at the right moment. When I got there she was freaking out indeed, so the first thing I do was say a prayer for everything to work out. I am happy it did, the event was a success.
Here are the link to the other transition posts.
Transition 2
Transition 1
Here are the link to the other transition posts.
Transition 2
Transition 1
Friday, November 1, 2013
Transitions (2) - Fear, Gratitude, Letting go
10/31/2013
Fear
Fear, whatever it is will become your personal stalker
during your time in transition. It sees and knows everything and makes up what
it is not sure of. It will be there when you wake up, go to sleep and even in
your dreams. If you try to ignore it, it will make faces at you while digging
in its heels to letting you know it is here to stay. With fear around being
positive and having faith is difficult as it will constantly remind you of all
the times things has not worked out as you hoped, it will give you many reasons
why things are not working out as you need it to now.
When you notice this fear you going to have to be strong and
meet it eye to eye. You are going to have to acknowledge it and its message and
then release it. This works wonders. Someone people recommend naming the fear
after acknowledging it before releasing it, this I think will help you
recognize it when it comes again so showing it the door will be prompt or after
five minutes.
Gratitude
Being grateful is must during this period. It will be difficult;
you will have to dig deep. You are going to question why you must be grateful
when the world is closing in on you. To be able to offer gratitude, you will need
to step out of your current situation and look at the world around you. If you
are having trouble to find something to be grateful for, make a list of the
things that is sustaining you at the moment.
Think of the Sun that warms the earth, or the rain that nourishes it,
think of water you drink or with which you take a bath, think of anything that
makes you smile even for the moment. Think of the people who by their words,
action or presence are reminding you not to give up.
Letting go
After you’ve analyze your life, gone within and figured out
your goals and dreams, and what you envision for your life, when your what you
want and need becomes the same, you are going to want this need now. You might feel an energy surge that will
propel you into the “I must prepare phase”.
You will start doing everything you can to get ready to start
accomplishing your goals and living your dreams, but then after all the work
you put it, you find that you might have to wait. You will give up. This is the time when you
will need to have faith. You are going to have to call for help, turn to the
big guy and put it in his hands. Instead of giving up, you must surrender to
God. Tell him and his helpful angels to
take over because when you give up, you are left with nothing. Remember, you
are not going through all this for “nothing”.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Tansitions (1) - The holding Pattern
10/28/2013
The hold pattern
I am in transition they tell me, a
holding pattern. I am glad there are words to describe this time period in my
life and that someone informed me of it (no joke, it helps a lot and I give
thanks and gratitude for this knowledge). These words have become the flash light that
turns off and on, on its own in this dark tunnel that I have been in for almost
three years now. But something tells me
I am nearing the end of the tunnel, all my cells in my body are suddenly hyper
as they sense the brightness at its end. I should have known this transition
awaits me because seven years ago I started this path of self-discovery, what I
would not have know is that it will lead to me being plucked out from life as I was living
it and put in place that is transforming.
Here is what I wrote three years ago and the height of my
self-discovery: “On the part to self-discovery, becoming whole, becoming my authentic
self. For the past couple of years, I
have been wondering what I am meant to do with my life, I have the innate
feeling that I am meant to be somewhere else doing something more fulfilling,
and I am meant to contribute more to the universe than I am current doing. This
feeling was the force that got me to apply to business school in 2005 and now five
years later, I feel like it is back, urging me to move closer to my
destiny. After grade school it took,
what felt like decades for me to find a job, and even then my life hit a wall,
all the opportunities that was dangled before me faded; for instance the
opportunity to work at the VA hospital disappeared as will quickly as it
appeared.”
Now it is three years later, after being laid off from a job
that I wanted to leave, and giving up my apartment in a town that I did not
enjoy living in, I find myself more certain of what I want for my life
professional and personally. In know now that I want to engage more with and in
live instead of being just the observer, the investigator. Before the layoff and the forced move, I was
job hunting, looking to leave town but circumstances beat me to it. I dealt
with the situation by putting my things in storage and planning a move
destination unknown. All I knew was I wanted
to be in an area where it would be easy for me to continue my career interests
and give me opportunities to interact more with others. Luckily a friend’s mom
staying about 80 miles from an area I was interesting in offered to rent me a
room for what I can afford to pay. I accepted and I joined two professional
organizations that offered monthly seminars giving me the opportunity to stay
connected to my industry happenings and to network, something I had wanted to
do whiles working but never got the opportunity to do. Though I was down, I was
not going to be knocked out.
I understand myself a lot more now and I feel more equipped
to take my place in this world. Although I have found ways to stay involved in
my profession, and to earn money for bills, I am still looking for something
full-time permanent opportunity that will allow me to put my innate analytical
and problem solving skills to use, as I am certain that part of my path, my
destiny calls for me to do just that. I know I am on my way; I just spend the
summer helping someone launch a home health care business and later I have been
seeing opportunities that could be promising... So I am on my way.
As they say “when the student is ready the teacher will
come” , a teacher, one by the name of Alanis Morissette through her interest in,
psychology, Astrology, women empowerment and Spirituality showed up for me when
I started my path to self discovery and many has followed since then. As I learned that I am more than my sun sign
(Gemini), I discovered numerology and recently the enneagram. All this
personality and psychological tools helped me become my own parent. Using my
analytical skills I did a lot of research on the Internet and at book stores.
These tools also lead me to the spiritual communities online starting with Hay
house radio and now 12Radio where I have met many teachers, supporters and made
many friends. With spirituality I learned to tune within for answers, and trust
in God and the universe, which you think should be easy for me because I am a 7
life path (the spiritualist) according to numerology, but with my Gemini sun,
keeping my mind quite during meditation is a struggle, even with the guided and
imagery meditations.
During this period I realized that we are all connected and
God has a way of letting us get the messages meant for us. If you miss it the
first time, you will definitely get it again. For instance, sometimes when I go
to church with my friend’s mom and I will hear the same message I heard during
the week on the Radio on church on Sunday and vice versa. Another thing I have learned during this
period is to be more open and trust more and not to be afraid to reach out for
help because sometimes the person you reach out to have a message for you. Just
recently I was upset because a job that I thought I had did not turn out to be
what was promised and even though I do not like calling someone during the work
day, I called someone who has been helping with my job search and networking, He told me to email him, and
after I told him what was happening he wrote “something is meant to be/Happen for you” I smiled and said thank you. Three hours later I got a call from an employer informing me that someone is interested in interviewing me and they will call me to schedule. Once when this friend told me to have faith, played that message in my head all day, I even dreamt he was offering to take me to church.
after I told him what was happening he wrote “something is meant to be/Happen for you” I smiled and said thank you. Three hours later I got a call from an employer informing me that someone is interested in interviewing me and they will call me to schedule. Once when this friend told me to have faith, played that message in my head all day, I even dreamt he was offering to take me to church.
Being in a holding pattern, going through transition is not
easy. Staying positive will work but not all the time. At times you will feel
as if you are in limbo one minute you will be find and the next you will be in
despair. Frustration will come, especially if you know and feel that you are doing
everything you can to make changes to your situation you know that is needed.
Tears will come from nowhere, things that you once enjoyed as hobbies will seem
frivolous and pointless. If it is a job you are wanting and can’t find any, you
will hate Monday because you are not at work and you will not be looking
forward to TGIF as few employers book interviews on weekend. At times you will resent
the affirmations and advice that have helped you in the past because all you
want to do is move forward. The word patience will be your nemesis. You will
question God and life.
For those going through transition, I send you hugs and lots
of love. My advice is to just trust and surrender to God but stays focus on
your goals and do not give up. Try and stay engage in life and make a list and
try to accomplish sometime each day even if it is just cleaning your room.
Anything positive that gets your mind off your situation is a gift.
More to come…..
Monday, August 19, 2013
Antonina M. Morcelle -There is no words...
Nothing left to say but I will miss you dear soul friend. You will always be in my heart and your family will continue to be my family. Listen for my voice in heaven, watch over me on earth, and celebrate the good times with me.
Toni and me at Niagara Falls May 2007
RIP... Toni!!! I will keep listening for our song.
Toni and me at Niagara Falls May 2007
RIP... Toni!!! I will keep listening for our song.
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Good bye Dear Annie...You were really my friend
Today I had to say see you later not good bye to my dear friend Annie. Two weeks after I met her at Mountain View United Methodist Church, she said to me," I like you, you are my friend'. From that day on, we sat next to each other at coffee hour after church on Sundays.June 4th, 1922 -June 10th, 2013
As we got to know each other, I found out we are both Gemini, which explained a lot, as we always had stories to share courtesy of our gifts for the gab. We also shared the gift for making an ordinary dull event sounds most interesting.
I love that Annie loved and cherished the people she loved especially her family. I love that she was already planning her Christmas gift list. She loved life, she loves to sing, to laugh, and to eat.
I am going to miss our weekly conversation and her knack for keep my spirit up as I share my weekly dilemma with job hunting and recently the crush.. As she said what meant to be will be and the right job is out there for me and it will be greater than I expect.
I wish Annie was here in person to see how this unfold but I bet she already knows as she is now on the magical side and will be right here with me as I experience it.
Annette "Annie" June VanDemark
Gone in Person, remains in Spirit in the heart of those who loved her...
Find out more about Annie here
Monday, April 29, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Well well well, another year is upon me
It is 2013, year 6 for the math and numerology lovers and my personal year 8.. Whatever is in store for me this year, will be tackled with grace, and tenacity. I want to relocate this year and bring into my life relationships that are inspiring, supportive, and joyful.
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